My You Story

I've written a lot about struggling lately, and people are probably wondering why? Why add something so negative to such a positive idea? And you would think it does sound negative, but when you look at it the way I'm trying to, you'll see it's not. When you get into an argument with someone, it's because you have some sort of opposing views. And how do you resolve these issues? You either come to a mutual understanding that you're either just too different, or one of you sees what the other person sees after finally giving them the chance to explain why they feel the way they do. Both of those results meant you worked towards a better result. You didn't just walk away (something I struggle with). It's hard to face reality when you want so much to be right all the time. It's important to see the differences as not someone being right or wrong all the time, and instead to respect the opinions of another person, listen to what they're saying, and

When you say I didn't know how to love before you, you aren't kidding. It's always easiest to just run from issues, something that I became so use to. You've challenged me to work through the issues, and I need to express my appreciation for the patience that you've given me, especially because you have the least amount of patience out of pretty much anyone I know. Trying to learn what someone else needs is hard when you've only ever thought about yourself for so long. I know we're young, but 21 years is definitely enough time to form bad habits. Something we've definitely both improved on during our time together is forgiveness and realizing things can't always go our way. We have to know when to fight for what we need, and when to sacrifice the things we don't. That can be tricky at times when you feel like something you want is what you need, and you can't see it until the other one points it out. I know my bad habits now because of you,

I'd like to say everyday is an adventure with you, and it is. But it is 200x better with you here. It's the simple things and simple moments with you that I love. I can't tell you how much I love weekends like this one, when you come up to school to see me. Just having you walk through the door and talk about how things have been, always have me feeling like I'm back at home. To be able to cook you dinner, to watch TV with you even when you want to do crossword puzzles, or to decide what new adventure we'd like to encounter for the next day. It's become something of a habit for us always trying to surprise each other. You've done a whole lot better at this than I have, considering I always end up telling you the surprise. But the surprise I knew about this week could not have been any more exciting. Every time you come up, I always work the whole weekend, giving us how many awake hours did you calculate? About ten? Six hours wide awake, and the next fo

At this very single moment, you can imagine the millions of thoughts running through my head, and I'm sure yours as well. When I turned around to look at you, happiness, excitement, and butterflies all took over my body. It was more than a dream come true on July 18th. To have my best friend down on one knee proposing to me, asking me to spend the rest of my life with him was such an unreal feeling. This promise of fighting through everything together is something indescribable and fearful all at once. We never know what the day will bring us, we just have the now. In that moment, I could not have asked for any thing, any place, any person more perfect. Of course in that moment you relive all of the best and worst moments of the relationship, and you have to decide, what exactly it is that you want. You have to truly believe you are making the right decision. I am so glad we have the same outlook on marriage and see that divorce is not an option. Once! We only want to do this onc

When is the last time you picked up a flower to see if a guy loved you? Probably forever ago. But it's funny to think, as a kid, we had to find out if a guy loved us by saying, "he loves me, he loves me not" and hoping the last petal of the flower that you were saying he loves me. I'll tell you one thing, it feels amazing to not have a flower determine where your love life lay. My mom and dad always told me from a young age that my future husband better let me know everyday how much he loves me, so I know I am loved the way my dad loves my mom. This is something I never directly told you, but guess who always makes sure I know he loves me. Yes, you, my future husband indeed, Mr. Marc Colón! I can't help but become nostalgic every time you ask me if I know you love me. It's such a simple question with so much meaning behind it. All any girl ever wants is to be loved and to know it. And with you, there is no doubt that what we have for each other is anything l

There are some days when I know exactly what I want to write about, and other days when I kind of just wing it. Today is one of those days where I wing it. I thought I knew what I wanted to write about, but the moment I started writing, something else felt more relevant. I know we have this deal to see each other as often as we can now that we're separated, but sometimes these weeks in between feel like an eternity. And right now, these next two days already feel like they're dragging. Honestly, this is just a big "I miss you" post, and I didn't want to waste the chance of letting you know. There's nothing I wouldn't do to hold you in my arms right now and just have us watch my not so favorite show :* I'm already dreading Sunday when we have to return to how our life is going to be until graduation. 6 months, 16 days, 22 hours, but hey, who's counting right? It's moments like these that really make you think about all the times we get upset w

There's nothing more attractive in a guy than having their confidence radiate everywhere they go. For anyone who knows Marc, this meme is not just a meme, but kind of a lifestyle for him. At first I thought how particular about things he was seemed weird, but now I can honestly say I appreciate the effort he puts into all the little things. The way he needs everything ironed perfectly in the morning, how he can't go too long without a hair cut, to wear the perfect sneakers/shoes for whichever event he'll be attending, and of course the cologne of choice for the day. If you haven't yet had the moment where you crave the smell of your man, you're seriously missing out (not even kidding). I'd like to think Marc did this as a test, and it worked, but here's something I've always noticed (BTW I'm not accusing you babe, it's just something I noticed lol). I feel like his smell has been engraved in my head because every gift I receive from him, smell

There's no such thing as the perfect couple, and that's quickly learned once you pass the innocent middle school elementary school boyfriend/girlfriend (even high school) phase. But that doesn't mean you just give up trying to push the relationship to its fullest potential. Marc and I are both young, and have lots of growing to do. Lucky for us, we both want the same end goal, and that is to be together til death do us part (and not even then). They say love isn't enough sometimes, and my question to the people who say that is, why not? Why can't love be enough? If you both want the same thing as badly as you say you do, then fight for it. That doesn't mean there aren't going to be times when you're struggling, as Marc always tells me, it's not about what happens, it's about how you deal with it. I know he thinks I don't listen sometimes because, well honestly, what woman doesn't think she's right all the time? It's all in th

It is Sunday, and although this isn't a church song, I feel it still kind of fits. Btw, it's country, but I promise it's a great one. You'll have my boss to thank for this one. Throughout all of my times of struggle you've been my rock, and always seem get to me right back on track. There are times when we both need help getting back on track of things, and I can't help but think of one specific thing that was a definite turning point for us. I brought it up a few times to you, but the fact that you are able to go to church with my family on Sundays whenever you get the chance makes my heart melt something crazy. It's amazing for me to see us grow in so many different ways, and for you to touch on something that meant so much to me all of my life just shows me we're making the right decision. I appreciate all the little things you do so much! Whenever you are in time of need, I want to provide you with the same confidence you always give me. With lo

I know you don't think you look good in this picture, but just like you tell me, I want to show the world just how handsome you are in my eyes. Plus, we have a lot more pictures coming, and this one should be the least of your worries. But pictures are not the focus today, and neither is Sara's sweet sixteen (sorry Sara). It's taken a long time to get you comfortable and out of your shell, and I'm not gonna lie, I had very little hopes of you dressing up that night. To my surprise, as per usual, you blew my mind, and we ended up looking completely bomb, fitting right into the 50's theme as Sandy and Danny from Grease. This night and your outfit were just a small example of the things you do that surprise me and things I appreciate. Even though you may be apprehensive about doing some things, you're always willing to try for me. Just like that night, or every time you eat the cupcakes I bake even though you don't like cake (Outsiders, yes I know, who doesn&

I'd like to believe it was fate or something that kept bringing us together, but I can't help but think the moment I saw you, that it was honestly love at first sight. I know I've told you this story probably 100x already, but hearing it once more won't hurt. Freshman year of high school I was standing on the 67 with one of my friends from your grade. (For any outsiders, Marc is one year ahead of me in school) It was like something turned my head to the front doors of the school and I saw you walking with the "Goyas" hahahaha. (True story). Anyway, I'm not sure what it was exactly, but you caught my eye in an instant. Maybe it was your confident walk, or the way you smiled walking with your crew to wherever you were walking, I'm not sure. I just know I turned to my friend and immediately said I needed to meet you. She never did help in this situation, but I made it my mission to meet you and get to know who you were. Rest assure, I got what I wanted

It is Thursday! We might have been a little young to pick "our song", but to this day, it still applies. I remember hearing this song my freshman year of high school and automatically thinking of you. In true fashion of the Myspace era, it immediately went up on my page. The crazy thing is, I didn't think you'd like this song. To my surprise, that quickly, it became OUR song. Well at least one of them :) There are many things that over the years have not become yours or mine, but ours. And this is something I look forward to continuing. We both have many stories from Rush, but we can both happily say this is something that no one can take from us. " I remember what you wore on our first date.  You came into my life a nd I thought hey, y ou know this could be something.  'Cause everything you do and words you say, y ou know that it all takes my breath away a nd now I'm left with nothing. So maybe it's true, that I can't live without you.  Well

We all have things that motivate us. Mine just so happens to be you. Every morning when I wake up, I can't help but feel excited for the day because I know everything we are working for, is for each other. You know how to pick me up while I am down, you know how to push me forward when I feel like I'm not doing anything right. I could not ask for anything better than the things you provide for me. Whether it is a hidden card between my pillows giving me the push I need to feel confident, or the roses you bring home to me that I refuse to let go. These are just two of the daily motivators no one can take away from us. Who ever said you can't find a guy like in the movies was wrong, because you are my proof. With love always, Becca

Words can't even begin to describe the feelings we both felt on July 18, 2016. As a start to our 365 day challenge, what better way to kick it off. We've watched this video 1,000 times over, but when you love something so much, who's really counting :*